Look, Please I’ve Fallen Asleep.

the way i looked up to her

the way she looked down at me

she achieved

oh yes, she achieved

while i spent my whole life chasing

validation, externally

even though
it suffocated me

even when

it was rejecting me

and well, it was easier this way.

to stay. ashamed and afraid.

so,

I kept hiding to myself

I kept lying to myself.

and spent all of this time

crying instead of listening

to what deep down

I knew I always wanted to be (always could be)

I became nothing, new.

and lived the rest of my life

oh, so monotonously

look please-

you’ve already fallen asleep.